Today I'm Changing

Change comes to us at difficult times. It can be a divorce, a child's birth or it can be an awakening.

I'm 37 years old. I've never been overseas, I've never done all the things I wanted to do when I was 17. I wanted to see the world but I let getting discharged from Marine Boot Camp change that.

If there is one thing in my life that has inhibited my understanding of who I am it's that discharge. I knew who I was at 18 and I knew what I wanted, I have felt that way in a long time and it's been twenty years.

Recently I've been thinking about that 17 year old, brought on by a post I wrote for The Today Voice that will go live onTuesday April 2nd.

I hadn't thought of that 17 year old in a long time and what he wanted out of life because I felt like I've been a disappointment to myself and to my dad, who hasn't really been in my life for the last thirteen years.

In three years I'll be 40. In one years I would have been available to retire from the Marines with twenty years in. But as change happens and sometimes it's not very pleasant, I see through different eyes now.

My life now isn't what I thought it would have been then, but who's is?

Today I make a change for me. To take control of who I am, what I am and where I'm headed in my life. I never thought I would write words like this, but something we have to write what scares us in order to move forward and make changes instead of letting them happen.

Today I'm changing!